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Saturday, February 23, 2019

My Journey to Veganism


In July of 2017, I made the decision to become vegan. This wasn’t a decision I made suddenly, without thought, or based purely on in-the-moment emotion. It was something I had been slowly working towards, researching, praying about, and studying ancient and modern words of God and the prophets.

            I first really learned about the idea of veganism from my friend David who had been vegan for a while before we met. I had of course heard of veganism before meeting him, but had never put much thought into it, and often dismissed it as foolish, distant, radical, not something worth thinking about, and even against the will and plan of God. This played into much of my early friendship with David. I would often challenge him on his choice to be vegan, I would site claims that he was missing vital nutrients like protein and calcium by avoiding meat and milk. I would site claims that God gave us animals to use for food. This continued on for a couple years of our friendship before I came to accept it and realized many of my claims were wrong. 

            While David was certainly a catalyst in my choice to become vegan, he was not the primary cause. It ultimately had to be my choice. Once I mellowed out and came to accept his choice to be vegan, I became more supportive. When I would eat with him I would often eat vegan foods with him. This applied both when we ate at home, and also when we went to restaurants. When I wasn’t with him, I would still generally eat a lot of meat, milk, eggs, etc. 

            Over time I started to notice something. When I ate vegan meals, I would often feel a bit better, lighter, happier, and more in-tune spiritually afterwards than when I ate something that wasn’t vegan. I had also been having various health issues such as upset stomach, gas and bloating, and back pain, and I would generally notice a decrease in those symptoms when eating vegan as well.

            As I started to take note of these differences in how I felt, I was also starting to reach out to doctors for help with my digestive issues. My experiences with the doctors would be that they would either dismiss my concerns as not as limiting or important as they felt to me, or they would recommend very specific and difficult to follow dietary changes or various medications that of course ran the risk of different side-effects as well as potentially making me dependent on an expensive pill to feel alright. 

            As all of this was happening, I felt that I wanted to look at my choices of food from a more spiritual perspective. I started to really challenge some of my deep-seated beliefs on what the teachings on food consumption were in the church. I had honestly never seriously and purposefully read through the Word of Wisdom. Of course I had read verses here and there, and heard talks and lessons on it given in church, seminary, and institute, but in almost every case when (and if) food was talked about, it was said that it teaches “everything in moderation”.

            The "problem" with the word moderation is that it’s not limiting on any one thing in particular. In other words, a dinner plate that’s 50% meat, 50% vegetables would be considered moderate as neither the meat or vegetables are in excess of the other. A 60% to 40% ratio could also generally be considered moderate. 

            When I actually read the Word of Wisdom, I found that a different word was used in speaking on the consumption of meat. In D&C 89: 12-13 it states: 

12 Yea, flesh also of beasts and of the fowls of the air, I, the Lord, have ordained for the use of man with thanksgiving; nevertheless they are to be used sparingly;
13 And it is pleasing unto me that they should not be used, only in times of winter, or of cold, or famine.

            The first key word used here is sparingly. Sparingly is a more limiting and specific word than moderation. For example, if I have a dinner plate that’s 50/50 meat and vegetables, I would be eating in moderation, but I wouldn’t be eating one or the other sparingly as they are equal values. 

            More important for me though was the wording in verse 13. God specifically states that it’s pleasing unto Him that “they should not be used, only in times of winter, or of cold, or famine.” For me that stood out very clearly. When I looked at my own life, I realized I’m certainly not in a time of famine. Even if it is winter or cold outside, because of advancements in technology, transportation, and agriculture I’m pretty much never in a situation where I would need to eat meat for survival. And God stated that it’s pleasing unto Him that they are not used outside of those specific instances.

            Some of the other scriptural accounts that really stood out to me in making this decision are those scriptures that talk about when the earth was and will be perfected. During the time of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden, the earth was in a perfected state. There was no death. 

Genesis 1:29-31
29 ¶ And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat.
30 And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.
31 And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.
Genesis 2:15-16
15 And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it.
16 And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat:

           During the time when the world is again perfected there will also be no death. Even the animals will not feed on each other.

Isaiah 11:6-9
6 The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them.
7 And the cow and the bear shall feed; their young ones shall lie down together: and the lion shall eat straw like the ox.
8 And the sucking child shall play on the hole of the asp, and the weaned child shall put his hand on the cockatrice’ den.
9 They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain: for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.
Isaiah 65:25
25 The wolf and the lamb shall feed together, and the lion shall eat straw like the bullock: and dust shall be the serpent’s meat. They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain, saith the Lord.

            As I considered those scriptures, I thought of how we are here on this earth to be tried and tested, to eventually hopefully reach perfection. While no one will achieve perfection here, and no one can achieve perfection without the grace and atonement of Christ, and we will all sin and fall short, I felt that I could still try to work towards it during this life. And when I considered that part of the nature of the perfected world was the absence of death or killing, I looked at and challenged my own participation in the killing of animals. 

            As I was studying the scriptures, I decided I wanted to look for words of modern prophets on the matter. After quite a bit of searching I found a video that really touched me. It’s called “Return to Sparingly: Quotes From LDS Prophets and Apostles.” (I will share it below and include a link). This video had a huge impact on me, and really opened my eyes to the history and significance of the Word of Wisdom that I was totally unaware of before.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXGXodVrYsA&lc=Ugya8agkyAuraP936wJ4AaABAg
As this video is basically just quotes, here's a transcript to the quotes if you'd rather just read them:
  https://returntosparingly.weebly.com/quotes-video-transcript.html
            I came across another video called “Discovering the Word of Wisdom: A Short Film” that similarly had a big impact on me and really got me thinking. (shared and linked below).
            As I found all of this information I started to genuinely feel uncomfortable about my choices of food. I felt that there was something I needed to change, and that it would improve my life spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. I prayed a lot and fervently asked God for answers. Eventually I made a decision. I set a date when it would be easier for me to fully transition over and decided I was going to do it. The date of, I went cold-turkey. I started eating only foods that were vegan and nothing else. And during this time I prayed a lot and continued studying. I really wanted to know if this was what God wanted me to do.

            I got my answer not long afterwards. It wasn’t a big huge moment, it was more subtle and drawn out. But as the days went on and I stayed committed to eating vegan, I noticed my life improving in many ways. And eventually it just clicked that this was what I was going to do, that it was more than just a personal decision, it was a spiritual one and a commitment made between me and God. That the Word of Wisdom is indeed a word of wisdom. Not all included in it is commandment. But God gave it for council that if I accepted it, I could live a better and healthier life, and I could continually learn new things about how to take care of myself and my body.

            I have not taken this change in my life to mean that I should pressure or command others around me to follow the same and become vegan. I still love those in my life who are not vegan. That does not mean I do not feel the need to encourage others and share with them the benefits I have received from this change. I very much want to help people realize what I did, make a change, and experience the benefits from it. But I want to do it in a way that respects others’ agency.

            This summer I’ll hit the 2 year anniversary of my transition to a purely vegan diet. During the past approximately year and a half I’ve experienced both criticism and support. But I plan to stick to it unless and until God commands otherwise. And, for the sake of my family, friends, and those around me, I want to share the benefits of and my testimony of the Word of Wisdom and following its council. I know that God, the creator of my body, knows what’s best for my health, even if sometimes I’m unsure or unwilling to listen. I know that I can find answers in the scriptures, from modern and living prophets and apostles, and from prayer and personal revelation. I’m so thankful that God placed people and circumstances in my life that led me to really want to learn about and improve how I care for my body. And I’m thankful for my chance to live here on this wonderful earth.

Just one other quote I found today while preparing to write this post that I really loved. This is from a talk given by Ezra Taft Benson (then of the Quorum of the Twelve) in a devotional on March 4, 1979. The talk is entitled “In His Steps” https://speeches.byu.edu/talks/ezra-taft-benson_in-christs-steps/

Second: food. To a great extent we are physically what we eat. Most of us are acquainted with some of the prohibitions, such as no tea, coffee, tobacco, or alcohol. What need additional emphasis are the positive aspects—the need for vegetables, fruits, and grains, particularly wheat. In most cases, the closer these can be, when eaten, to their natural state— without overrefinement and processing—the healthier we will be. To a significant degree, we are an overfed and undernourished nation digging an early grave with our teeth, and lacking the energy that could be ours because we overindulge in junk foods. I am grateful to know that on this campus you can get apples from vending machines, that you have in your student center a fine salad bar, and that you produce an excellent loaf of natural whole-grain bread. Keep it up and keep progressing in that direction. We need a generation of young people who, as Daniel, eat in a more healthy manner than to fare on the “king’s meat”—and whose countenances show it (see Daniel 1).

Friday, January 26, 2018

Hold to the Iron Rod



In Lehi's vision in 1 Nephi 8, there is an iron rod along a strait and narrow path that leads to the tree of life. Along the path there is a river, and on the other side of the river there is a great and spacious building. The iron rod is enshrouded in a mist of darkness. Lehi sees individuals who lose their way in the mist of darkness. Some of them drown in the river, and some of them make it to the great and spacious building. Others, who hold tight to the iron rod, make it through the mist of darkness and reach the tree of life. Those in the great and spacious building point fingers and mock and scorn those partaking of the fruit of the tree of life. Some who have partaken of the fruit feel ashamed due to the mocking and scorn, and fall away and are lost. 

Lehi's Dream, by Greg Olsen

Just yesterday, a prominent voice in the gay Mormon community announced a significant change in their life and testimony. This individual was in a mixed-orientation marriage (meaning a marriage where spouses have different sexual orientations, such as a gay man married to a straight woman) that they decided to end. This normally wouldn't be much of an issue to me, aside from feeling genuinely sorry for them and those that their decision will affect. However, in the process of them announcing their decision for divorce, they also made very generalized and erroneous claims, and accused the church's stance on LGBT issues of literally killing people. 
In their post, they claimed that because their marriage failed, all other mixed-orientation marriages were doomed to fail. That’s simply a logical fallacy. It would be like me claiming that, as a native English speaker, because I failed a Spanish class in high school, that everyone else who is a native English speaker will also fail that same class. I feel this claim is particularly assumptive as I know people within the gay Mormon community who have happy and loving mixed-orientation marriages. I also feel it’s dangerous and unnecessarily damaging to potential marriages in the future. For example, while I don’t currently see marriage being an option for me, if one day I honestly fall in love with a woman and want to marry, if she were to do a Google search about marrying a gay Mormon man, and she happened upon that post, would she reconsider or have serious doubts that would change her mind about potentially marrying me?
The individual who wrote the post has a very large following, and is well-known and quite influential. For this reason, I honestly fear for those who may be negatively affected or led astray due to this individual’s choice and decision to turn against the church. And it’s not just those who are LGBT members of the church. I have already seen others who have been influenced and swayed by this post, and by other factors. Members who I wish were my allies, who I wish supported me and believed the doctrines of the church they are members of, turning against the church because of the scorn and mocking from the great and spacious building.
It seems that when someone falls away from the iron rod, they have a good chance of taking others down with them. Especially when this is someone with influence and a large following. It makes it particularly damaging and confusing when they pull others away in the confusion of large issues such as LGBT matters. There are so many opposing voices on this topic, so many black and whites, so many shades of grey, that it can honestly be hard sometimes to decipher what is true and what is not. And that’s part of what makes this such a powerful topic, both for good and evil. I have found incredible strength in my testimony by pushing through the difficulties that come along with being a faithful member of the church while also being attracted to the same sex. And there are definitely difficulties. And then there are others who have been lost in the mists of darkness due to the complexities and difficulties surrounding this issue.
I will be honest, sometimes it is difficult to not occasionally feel ashamed or confused when the voices from the great and spacious building are so loud and disparaging. Sometimes I do wonder if it would be easier or better to just go join the masses. But then I remember why I’m here. Why I keep going. Why I am pushing forward despite the difficulty and pain that I go through. I keep going because I have a testimony of Jesus Christ and His gospel. I’m here because I have worth that I can’t comprehend, and potential that I can’t currently realize. I’m pushing forward because I have a brother who loved me enough to pay for my sins, and die for me that I can live again. I’m here because I have a Heavenly Father who created this world, and put forth a plan wherein I can return to be with Him and with those that I love for eternity. I’m going on because God is loving, God is just, and God is merciful.
Being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints can honestly be incredibly difficult sometimes. I get lost in the complexities of life, and recently I’ve been realizing that it can be really good to return to the small and simple things. There’s a song that I like called “I Wanna Go Back” by David Dunn that has really touched me recently. Part of the lyrics are “I wanna go back to Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so. I wanna go back to this little light gonna let it shine. I wanna go back.” I have been so lost in some of the complexities that I’ve been forgetting some of the simple things. Forgetting that Jesus loves me, forgetting to pray and read the scriptures, forgetting why I have a testimony. But recently I’ve been going back. Going back to believing that Jesus loves me, and there is a plan for me. And that’s what matters.
            If you’re holding on to the iron rod, don’t let go. Those in the great and spacious building will continue to scoff, mock, and scorn. Difficulties will arise, things will be tough. But hold on. I believe that Jesus loves me. I believe that I have a place in the gospel. I believe that I can live a full life following the doctrine of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. And I believe that God’s plan is possible for all of His children, that He loves all of them, and that there is a way back through Christ’s atonement. And I will keep holding to the iron rod and I'll press forward with faith.